Student loans haunt me every day and they are impossible to pay. Hey, that rhymes! But seriously, I make around ten dollars and some change an hour; Take some taxes out of that and my income is basically minimum wage. Sure, my job as a custom framer and printer is stimulating enough. My work environment also encourages me to do the art that I love, and for the first time in my life I have a decent full-time benefits package, but quite simply I do not make enough money to pay rent and bills and groceries AND pay $250 dollars a month for student loans. The math is just not there. So I resort to a bit of dreaming. I've always been good at drawing but, hell, I'm even better at dreaming! I dream of winning the lottery (even though I don't play the lottery, but that one time I do, my number will definitely hit and I'll be an instant millionaire!) I dream my art will get recognized (even though my art is in a stack on the floor in my room, because even with my employee discount, I can't afford to get all of my pieces framed to prepare for a show) and I dream other dreams that also make everything okay.... sigh...
When I started this blog I was in a pretty low point of my life, but I managed to breathe and think positively and think thoroughly, and that helped me grow a lot and keep a clear and healthy mind and body. I still breathe and will not let the pressure of student loans destroy me. The responsibility is another subject, and I'm working on keeping the ball in my court. Good luck to everyone who faces the same dilemma that I am facing. It can really make you feel vulnerable and worthless at times, but that is exactly how you should not let it win. Keep your chin up, breathe, find good ways to make money to feed that hungry dragon, and stay happy. If I can do it, so can you!
